We're back in Jacksonville

Monday, December 29, 2008

We are back in Jacksonville after close to two weeks spent in Louisiana. It was a nice visit and my son has toys pouring out of his room. He's just a bit spoiled but isn't that the way it is supposed to be when they are this age? It's hard to believe my baby boy is a practically grown up 2 yr old now. He is becoming so independant.

Of all of the toys Lukas got, the play vacuum cleaner is his favorite (for the moment). I'm happy because that is the first toy I bought for him this year. He had a great birthday party with lots of family at my parents' house. Christmas was nice too. Next year it will more than likely be just the three of us in Hawaii, unless someone decides to pay us a visit.

The bad thing about going home for the holidays, especially since home is Louisiana, is that we ate way too much not so healthy yummy food. So, it's diet time. I want to try to start exercising too. My goal is to lose at least 10 lbs. This is 10 pounds that I've wanted to lose for a long time though. It's the 10 lbs that is just sticking to me and will not go away. I wouldn't mind losing 15 but I feel like 10 is more realistic and I don't want to overwhelm myself with an unreachable goal. A lot of people tell me I look fine the way I am but they don't understand that I used to be super super skinny with the perfect body and that was without the effort of exercise or any sort of dieting. I sure do miss my metabolism :( So I guess it's just hard for me to accept this body I've got now with a tummy not so pretty thighs and plenty of stretch marks to go along with it. I'm working on it. I know I need to work on more than just my body because it's obviously my self-esteem too. So here's to getting healthy and working on being happier about myself. So if anyone wants to say any prayers for me that would be great b/c this isn't just affecting me but I can tell it's affecting my husband and our marriage too.