Don't know how long I'll leave this one up but had to get it out.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I cannot sleep. There is something that I cannot get off my mind lately and I just cannot let it go. I think it may be because my son is so close to the age I was when it happened to me. What this man did to me when I was just a baby is so disgusting and, for me, unforgivable. Not only what he did to me but also my younger brother. He is a sick, horrible, and evil man. Who, still to this day, looks at me with an evil smirk on his face laughing at me for what he got away with over 20 something years ago.
He lives very near my parents and I am friends with his family members. I guess that I am a bit paranoid because we are staying with my parents when we go home for Christmas. I don't want him laying eyes on my beautiful son. I wish I could get rid of this anger and forgive but how do you forgive something like that? I do not believe people like that change and there was never any justice served. It's just frustrating.


sues2u2 said...

If this is what it sounds like I am so sorry. I was between the ages of 3 & 5. My assaulter eventually went to jail for doing the same thing to his step children & later decided he was gay. He died a few years ago & I will admit that I felt nothing.

Find a good therapist. The military should have someone that you can see. And above all, listen to your instincts while you are @ your parents.

I will keep you in my prayers because this should never happen to anyone. I'm so sorry.

April Russell said...

Hunny, they are sick, these people like this. And you are right they never change, nor do they admit the terrible things they've done. I have been through this both with myself and my daughter only with a different man. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as well as your son.