Saturday, December 6, 2008
I cannot sleep. There is something that I cannot get off my mind lately and I just cannot let it go. I think it may be because my son is so close to the age I was when it happened to me. What this man did to me when I was just a baby is so disgusting and, for me, unforgivable. Not only what he did to me but also my younger brother. He is a sick, horrible, and evil man. Who, still to this day, looks at me with an evil smirk on his face laughing at me for what he got away with over 20 something years ago.
He lives very near my parents and I am friends with his family members. I guess that I am a bit paranoid because we are staying with my parents when we go home for Christmas. I don't want him laying eyes on my beautiful son. I wish I could get rid of this anger and forgive but how do you forgive something like that? I do not believe people like that change and there was never any justice served. It's just frustrating.