A truely beautiful woman.

Friday, August 28, 2009

I really want to write about my grandmother and what an amazing person she is. I am so blessed to be her granddaughter and to have her in my life. She is the greatest role model I have ever known. She is a true Christian woman and I have always looked up to her. My grandmother showed me how to really trust in God. She is beautiful both inside and out. She is so close to God, I hope I can get nearly so close. I'm working on it. She's traveled many places. She raised 6 children and was a wonderful wife to my grandfather. She has always been very active in the church. She was one of the first women to do the readings in Catholic church. She volunteered with the church, bringing Communion to the Nursing Homes and she would bring me along sometimes when I was a little girl. I never minded going and I admired her so much for it all. I remember spending the night at her house and we'd always go to the mall and she'd buy me an outfit. She survived the death of her husband, a stroke almost 4 yrs ago, and the death of her son, my Uncle Johnny. My Uncle Johnny was her baby. He had Down's Syndrome and passed away just last January. Having a son of my own, I know that had to be the hardest thing for her.
A few weeks ago, my grandmother suffered another stroke. She seemed to be doing better shortly after and was transferred from the hospital to a rehabilitation center. Unfortunately, she started having problems and was transferred back to the hospital, where she is now. Everyone seems to think this is the end and she is asking God to take her home. Only God knows if it's the end for sure but I wish that I could be there to hold her hand and tell her I love her.
I have lost other relatives and it's been difficult not being able to be there to say goodbye but this is so much worse. This is my beautiful grandmother, who I have looked up to all of my life. I am going to miss her so much. I don't want to go through this and I don't know how to. I just keep reminding myself that God will get me through it.

6 Years of Marriage

Monday, August 24, 2009

Yep, today is our 6th Wedding Anniversary. We had a fun family day together. I packed us some lunch and we went on a nice hike up a mountain. I barely could make it up and honestly I decided not to go all the way up because I had one of my dizzy spells up there but I got so very close. Even though I decided it was best that I not go any further up, we got to see some incredible views of Kailua, Kailua Beach, and Lanikai Beach. After our hike, we went to Kailua Beach to cool off in the water and have lunch. Lukas got wiped out pretty good by a wave and he was done after that. He fell asleep in the car on the way home. The poor little guy had a rough weekend (Saturday, he got stung on his little hand by a bee--whom he showed who was boss by smacking it into the pavement with his hand).

Time for a little Update

Saturday, August 22, 2009

I think it's about time for an update since I finally went back to the doctor. My appointment went well and I have a good dr (nothing like the one at my last appt). There are a number of things that could be causing my dizziness and the blurred vision. I got some labwork done and my dr is sending me to a neurologist b/c he is concerned about the blurred vision I had a few times. So, I guess this isn't really much of an update but it's what is going on. We have to narrow this down. The dizziness could still be caused by my ears and may need to go ahead and have surgery to have my eardrum repaired...the dr said, even w/surgery that there is a possibility I could just have dizziness for the rest of my life. I also had elevated blood pressure today so he wants to keep an eye on that. Hopefully, nothing serious is going on.
Meanwhile, Lukas has started going to daycare/school a few times a week and he loves it! We are still working on potty training but I'm not pushing it too much because I know he will eventually get it on his own. Tomorrow, I am going to try to get him signed up for swim lessons :)